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Only evidence I’ve seen so far that the band is actually playing here tonight (it’s a paper schedule I swiped from the concierge desk). Seriously, you’d think there would be a poster or something.

We met Paul David Hager, and he is lovely. And by “we met,” I mean Amanda met him and talked to him for a while and became his bff, while I stood nearby mainlining coffee. Oh and P.S. we were both wearing pajamas, which for me consisted of my GGD NYE shirt from Vegas, because I only ever meet GGD associated people when I am wearing GGD shirts, because such is my life.

Also, Amanda molested me in my sleep. She says I consented, but I don’t think a reasonable person would agree with that. P.S. Nicole does not count as a reasonable person.

Show tonight! I’m not really sure what the deal is yet. We don’t really want to wait in line all day, because we’d rather just chill and hang out and show up whenever. I don’t want to stress being in the front row, because I don’t want to stress anything. It’s going to be a new year, and I want to be a more mellow me.

I’m excited. I didn’t really know if I would be, honestly, and that has nothing to do with the show and everything to do with the traveling and the Detroit. Arranging the trip was stressful, and thinking about the flight was stressful, and getting to the airport at 4am was stressful, and the flying was kind of stressful, and dealing with increased hotel security was stressful, but it’s all gonna be okay. Now, I am de-stressing, and I’ve had some sleep after being awake for about thirty hours, and I’m excited.

I love this band, which is one of those things that I know about myself automatically, like my eye color or my address. And because it’s a fact, maybe I take it for granted sometimes. Of course I love this band, so I don’t need to listen to this album today, because I already know I love it, and that doesn’t change because I do or don’t hear these songs. But then when I do hear those songs, sometimes, it does change. When I remind myself how much I actually love this music, how much I actually love this band, how much my life is actually better as a result of this whole twisted path that started that first time I heard “Iris,” it’s all very powerful in a way I couldn’t have predicted, and sometimes, it actually feels new.

So I’m ready for this. I’m ready for the concert, and I’m ready for a new year, and I’m ready for whatever sort of new me I’ll be by the end of 2010. Bring it on, man. Bring it on.